| First Day of School |
Well, it’s official: I am a teacher! The first week of school is officially over
and we made it through! I’ve gotta
say….teaching is exhausting. I think one
thing that makes it exhausting for me is that there is so much planning
involved in everything and planning does not come natural to me. (I would rather wing it and see what
happens. Not good for teaching!) Don’t get me wrong, I know how to plan, but
when your job requires you to be the planner and the one driving the boat, it’s
tiring. So if you think about it, lift
me up in prayer that planning would become more natural to me and that I would
enjoy that portion of my job.
Along with that
exhaustion and weakness though comes a reliance on the Lord that I have enjoyed
so much. On Thursday I was so tired
after school that I went home and just slept.
And I guess when I say that I just slept, I really mean that I laid
there as my mind ran. But it was
wonderful…God did something to my heart as I laid there. I think in that time of rest I can me to
grips with the facts: I am weak and He
is strong. In that moment of rest I
became joyful about my situation, about the facts about being weak. When we have the facts straight about who God
is and about who we are, I believe that we can finally come into the rest that
God promises. (Hebrews 4:1)
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I’m learning
that resting is not really about getting sleep or taking it easy, either. Rest is when you stop fighting. It’s exhausting to fight a fight you can’t
win. I am not in control, but if I
attempt to have control I will never rest.
I know it’s simple but I’m finally living in the reality that God is in
control. I am weak. It’s just the facts. Now that I am no longer fighting that I can
rest in God’s promises. I can rest in
the fact that God says that He will fulfill our desires with good things. I
have lots of dreams and wants and ideas about how my life should look. I normally don’t tell God what I really want
for fear that it’s not a good thing to want or if I ask I won’t get it. But now I know that I can tell God exactly
what I’m thinking and then also tell Him that He knows my desire and I know
that it will be fulfilled with something good (Psalm 103). I could ramble for a long time, but the point
is, that God is good. But we can only
dwell in the rest that He gives if we come to grips with this: WE ARE NOT IN
CONTROL! Stop fighting it and give in
to HIS goodness and HIS plan and HIS protection.
Love you
all. Praying that God is showing himself
to you and that you can live in His rest.
Its’ pretty awesome!